Turns Out I'm Old

Guess who played in their first indoor soccer game last night?

This old lady, that's who!

So on the one hand you all should be super proud of me because I have wanted to bet back into soccer for years, but it was always impossible for me to find a team to play on.  I have been telling everyone I know for the longest time that if they ever hear of a team coming together to let me know cause I want to play.  Well, my good friend Stacey followed through and two weeks ago informed me that I could play indoor with her team and that our first game would be April 1st.

You know when you want something really bad, then you get it, and then you aren't so sure anymore?  Yeah, that definitely happened.  I do want to play, but all week I was psyching myself out because I have every reason not to put myself through it.  Like the fact that I'm exhausted!!  And I just had a baby less then 4 months ago.  And that means I have done anything physically active in at least a year (but lets be honest, it has been longer then that!)  And I have just been really overwhelmed lately with life.  So adding soccer games on Sunday nights seemed to be a little much.

But it was what I had been wanting for so long.  So I said yes anyway.

After the initial "yes" I found out that it was a co-ed, competitive league...super!

The good news is that I survived last night.  But seriously, I thought I was going to die.  Turns out we only had one girl substitute, so all of the girls playing thought they were going to die.  It was so so rough, and I truly can't tell you how old I feel.  At one point i was sure I was going to vomit, but by the grace of God the urge passed!  I kept telling my feet to move, but it was like my body was in slow motion!  It is crazy not being able to do something when the last time I was doing it I was pretty darn good!  But it kind of makes sense when I did the math...it has been 8 years since I have played soccer, and I have only ever played in one indoor game!  YIKES!  

I know it will get better over the next few weeks as I get more accustomed to moving my body, lol, but in the meantime I am going to pay for it.  Today has been pretty rough...I feel sore everywhere!  At least I'm accomplishing something that was on my "to do" list for the past eight years!

When did I get so old?!?

(i should mention one of the best parts of playing was seeing how excited Tavian was about it.  And hearing the "Go Mommy's" from the sideline, and having him run into my arms after the game.  And hearing him keep talking about it today.  So cute!)