Randoms

It is sad that during a time in my life when I would want ot be blogging the most, just to keep track of these precious moments with my little guy, I have the absolute least amount of time.  I guess my time is better spent actually enjoying the precious time with him then just writing about it!  Oh well, I guess I'll just write what I can when I can.
First of all, one month has already gone by.  Are you kidding me?  Tavian is getting so darn big.  I had him weighed last Friday and he was 9lbs 11oz.  I wanted to weigh him again today, but I guess I'll have to wait until tomorrow because things just keep coming up! 
In the last week and a half Tavian has really started making eye contact and it is so much fun.  I love watching him start to really pay attention to what is happening around him.  He looks me right in the eye and all I keep wondering is if he knows how loved he is.  I wonder if all the kisses I shower on him every day make him feel more loved.  I sure hope so.  I hope not a day goes by that he doesn't feel cherished in every way. 
For the past two Tuesdays my Aunt Barb has been coming over in the mornings to give me a few hours to sleep.  I can't tell you how much this means to me.  Of course it means a lot because I would do anything these days for some sleep, but it means even more because Tavian gets to spend that time with her.  I spent much of my time growing up with my Aunt Barb and they are some of my fav. memories.  I love that Tavian is already getting to experience some of that, and I love thinking about him growing up feeling close to her.  She is such a blessing in our lives!
Also, Cole's mom has been visiting on Fridays.  This is another special treat for us.  I love the company and help, and I love that Tavian gets this special time with his Grammy.  I wish my mom was here to shower love on him, but it is good knowing that even though she can't be here, that Tavian gets lots of love and attention from the Grammy that he does have!
The cutest thing happened the other day..Tavey found his thumb for the first time.  It was completely random and he hasn't quite figured out how to do it again (even though he tries), but I even took pics because it was so adorable.  I try and post them soon.
As for breastfeeding, it is still a struggle.  Yesterday and today I have pretty much only been pumping because I am in too much pain to do anything else.  Oh how I have missed getting to feed my little guy.  Late last night I gave in and fed him once just for a bit because I couldn't take it any longer.  It was such a special time!  I really don't know how long I can keep this up, but I also don't know how I'll ever give it up!  I just want Tavian to know how hard I fought for this, and I never want to forget, no matter the outcome, how much it meant to me!
Well, tonight is going to be interesting.  My friend Ashley asked me to join her at the Trace Adkins/Martina McBride concert.  It is at the Budweiser Even Center so it isn't far away and I shouldn't be out too late.  Of course I am very hesitant about leaving Tavian, but Cole thought it would be a really good idea for me to go.  The breastfeeding stuff has been taking up so much of my time and energy that he thought it would be good for me to get out of the house a bit.  I'm sure i'll be really tired, and I know I'll be missing Tavian the entire time, but I suppose I should give it a try.  Plus I love Ashley and i love Martina McBride!  I'll let you know how it goes:)