Mommy Guilt

One of the things that I was never rpepared for when entering motherhood was a little something I call "Mommy Guilt".  It pretty much is hiding behind every decision, every action.  I may be exagerating a little, but it is so surprising how much I toss and turn over such seemingly little things.  If I am out and about too much then I feel guilty because he hasn't had any down time and he has spent too much time in his car seat.  If I stay at home all day I feel guilty because he hasn't gotten to see the world and I'm not exposing him to enough new things.  Is he sleeping too much or too little?  If he naps in his crib then I feel bad because he is in there all alone, but if I let him nap in bed with me I wonder if I am creating a bad habit.  I don't dwell on these things at all times, but it is so hard when I am constantly striving to be the best mother for him.  I know how much he deserves, and sometimes I think he deserves more then I can give.  The one thing I remind myself of, no matter how inadequate I may be feeling, is that no one could love him as much as I love him.  And, even if I fail at the rest, I know he will always grow up knowing that he is loved!  If I do all things out of love, how bad could it be?  We'll see I guess;)
Along with "Mommy Guilt" comes the guilt you feel towards everyone else in your life.  The fact that I don't have the time or energy to call people back, return text messages, e-mails, etc.  Everything takes a backseat to being a mom and taking care of Tavian (which it should), but friendships and other relationships and responsibilities just aren't on the top of my list anymore.  I think I feel especially guilty because investing in my relationships was always really important to me.
There is the guilt when there is a ton of stuff to do around the house, but I would rather go to sleep.  Or the guilt when my hubby who works lets me sleep and he will get up with Tavian (I know, he is amazing!)  Or even the guilt that comes when i think about how hard being a mom can be (just because I know that more then anything it is the greatest blessing!)
Guilt sucks!  I think I need to do better about having realistic expecations for muself, and knowing that the people in my life will be loving and understanding of the new journey I am embarcking on!