As I continue to get closer to delivering the new baby, I also continue to get more emotional about my time with Tavian. I have to believe this is only natural. Of course I am excited and happy about the new baby coming, but there is something special about my relationship with Tavian and sometimes it is hard to acknowledge how it is going to be different. I haven't spent as much consecutive one on one time with anyone else before in my life...except maybe my own mom...and I probably never will again except for maybe when Cole and I are retired. It is such a special bond that the two of us have. Just me and him all day together. Laughing, cuddling, loving.
Anyway, a few weeks ago Cole, Tavian and I decided to make some fun treats together. They are delicious chocolate covered pretzels that look like bones (in honor of Halloween). In the midst of having such special, fun time together, I just started balling. I just wanted to pause time and remember every moment of it. I don't like Tavian to see me cry so I got up from the table for a moment, but then I decided I would embrace this time and help ensure that I remembered it forever. So I stopped my tears and had Cole take some pictures. (tear soaked face and all!)
Please note that I am very aware of the fact that I look like a hot mess! But that was kind of the point. It was just a very real, special moment, and the photos will always help me remember the struggle between anticipation for the changes to come, while cherishing this special time alone with Tavian.
For those of you moms who have more then one child...tell me I'm not crazy :)
I love that you took these! And I'm not going to lie, I love that you look like a hot mess in them because it shows how you were feeling!
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First of all you do not look at hott mess...you are obviously not an ugly crier:) What you are is a good mama!
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