Cole's Step-Grandma passed away earlier today. Clearly this is the bad news. However, she was an amazing woman who was always faithful to God, and in many ways it is a relief knowing she has found peace and is no longer suffering. Cole and I visited her in the hospital on Sunday. It brought me right back to when I was younger and visiting my own Grandmother on her death bed. Although it is hard to see anyone in such a state, I am glad that we got to see her one last time and that we could be there for her and the family. I always worry about Cole having to see things like that because I know he doesn't have as much life experience when it comes to death and loss. He handled everything really well, at least while we were in the hospital. But, once we got in the car we started talking about the love that was so apparent between his Grandma and Grandpa, and that even though she was the one dying and struggling to breathe, his Grandpa was suffering just as much as she was. He was watching the love of his life suffer, and little by little was coming to peace with saying goodbye to her. I told Cole it made me think of when we were older and how I knew he would take care of me if I was ever in that position. And, to my surprise, tears began rolling down his face. He could handle watching the experience between others, but when it applied to us he couldn't take it. This was such a witness of the love we have for each other, and although we sat and cried in the car together for a few minutes, I am thankful that we had the opportunity to share this experience. I know that no matter how much either of us ever suffer physically, the other will always be suffering just as much emotionally from having to witness the one we love in pain. To me this is beautiful, and as always, I am thankful this man is my husband!
Now, on to the good news. The funeral is going to be on Friday morning and that means Cole gets to take the entire day off of work. Leave it to me to find good news surrounding a funeral...I know it sounds horrible, but I am really excited to have another day to spend with Cole. I will take every second available for us to be together. We'll get to say goodbye to his Grandma and spend time with family in the morning, and then we will have the rest of the day for "us" time. We actually are very lucky with the amount of time we get to spend together on an every day basis, but every extra bit brightens my life!
I should mention that he has been so good to me throughout this pregnancy. Not only did he surprise me with a beautiful bouquet of flowers and my favorite candy (gummy worms) last week, but last night I came home to a beautiful candlight dinner. Everyday he takes time to make me feel special...I am so blessed! :)
p.s. 10 days til New Moon!!
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