20 Years Later

I seriously can't believe that today is the 20th anniversary of my mom's death.  How is that possible?  I remember events from that day and it feels like another life.  I also remember what a big deal the 10th anniversary was, and here we have already doubled that.  My mom's parents and one of her sisters flew out at the 10 year, and we all couldn't believe how long it had been.  And now it has been another ten.  With every anniversary I mostly think about who all still remembers her.  I guess I don't know why it matters to me so much, but I just feel like she was someone that made an impact, not just among her friends, but society in general.  I like knowing people remember the impact she made!
A difficult part of her death for me has always been that the majority of the people in my life never got to meet her.  She died when i was so young and i always knew that friends, my husband, and my children would never meet her.  That is why I have especially close bonds to those few friends that did meet my mom.  They may not remember it, but even just knowing that they met her and that our families were close means a lot to me.  Joedy, Jonathan, Melissa...just a few of those friends.  I don't have to see them or talk to them everyday, but they will always be special to me! 
It is very strange that the pain of her loss has remained constant, yet the time since her death continues to grow.  In terms of pain it is as if it happened yesterday, but when measuerd by life's events it seems like a lifetime!  I'm not quite sure how that works!

20 years later
5 high school graduations
5 college graduations
5 weddings
11 grandchildren
...and so much more

525,600 minutes.  How do you measure, measure a year?
...or 20?

All of us that live in Fort Collins met at the cemetery to spend time together and remember my mom.  It felt like more should be done because 20 years is a big deal..but I honestly didn't know what.  I'll probably watch some home videos this weekend.

Sarah with Dylan and Aiden..Aiden is the one dressed as a fireman...haha:) too cute!

I love you and miss you mom!